Was going through my dresser and found a sheet of paper, it has my first journal entry for my second semester english class last year. The topic we had to write was "Who are you, from a spiritual point of view?". I'm pretty pleased with what I came up with despite it being, kind of depressing :-\. But it accurately depicts what I was thinking at the time, better articulated I think than any other time.
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February 7, 2002

Who am I? What a question, and from a spiritual point of view...not trying to be a pain, but its kind of unfair to ask a question that most people spend their entire lives trying to figure out, but I will try my best. Well I think I am a bystander of life, I stand and watch as others live and grow, I watch them fail and succeed, and everything inbetween. Rarely do I take part myself, for I am too worried that I will not fail or succeed half as well as those who came before me. In my mind I live in everyone's shadow.If I'm unable to forge my own path I usually don't go down that road. I strive to be an individual, in a group-oriented world, not through drugs, alcohol, piercing, or tattoos. I strive to have my own style, yet I worry too much about what others will think, but I suppose that is inevitable. I'm too worried to anger or bother anyone else, I look beyond people as I walk, being sure not to stare at anyone, avoiding even eye contact. If that's not a metaphor I don't know what is...
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Well there you have it folks, a moment of verbal clarity or just regular old teenage angst, you be the judge.