Yeah I had that last post for a while and never found the drive to finish it, but recently I dunno the monotony of life has really set in. I have a weekly routine, and the college I goto, since I don't live there, nothing interesting happens. Any stories I have to tell have been told. SO for many of my friends I believe i have become more a nuisance than anything. Since I don't live on campus at school, I have no more "dorm stories" or if I do, they are from last year, anyone who is at college knows what I'm talking about. Just living on a campus makes life like a sitcom hence something is usually remotely interesting happening to you, or at least nearby. But I don't have campus life, since I'm at the very local comunity college.

Plus i have no place to go, I don't drink, smoke , or do drugs, so I have nothing to do. I don't meet many new people my age, and I'm shy, so I don't make many new friends, or meet any females I'd actually ask out even if I had the courage regardless.

I goto school, work, play videogames and watch TV. Notice i didn't say homework, because i rarely do any right now, partially because I don't get that much and also because its insanely boring since my life is bereft of stimulation. I spend rediculus amounts of time on the computer simply because there's nothing else to do.

On another random tangent, polotics.....I hate them, actually I like the topic its usually kind of interesting. But I hate them in the fact, that an ass load of my friends have totally different views than I do, I'm doing all I can to keep from yelling "Your Such an Idiot!!". Can't say anything because then you end up in an argument wouldn't want to jeopordize some of the few friendships I still have.

Had a big argument in a msgboard I frequent about polotics,
I think i was the only person on my side of the argument, I take it seriously because polotics are serious.

I've decided to not go on AIM for a while just to see what happens. I feel like I'm the one who has to initiate the conversations too often. Since it seems like aparently I'm not enough of a friend to hang out with. I know that people are busy, and that people have other friends besides me. But I go out of my way to find time, but since no one else does I just end up sitting at home by myself, doing nothing. Plus AIM is iritating anyway, I mean everyone always stays 'away', and rarely uses away messages that actually mean anything. And because it seems when i leave messages for people while they are away, people seem to feel they don't have to read or respond to what I send.

I'm just fed up with life, and i know I can post this here, since no one reads it anyway.